My Job is to Help you Die

I see people who get on my table who can’t lay still for five minutes, let alone an hour. They twitch, they itch, they adjust, they fidget for the entirety of their session. For some, injuries or years-old holding patterns won’t let them lay comfortably. Others will practically hover over the table, ready to spring up and run out the door to do the next thing that needs doing. People will lay there, their head face down in the cradle, eyes open, mind and mouth chattering away in an attempt to focus on pretty much anything but what they are feeling as I work out the knots.

And it’s all okay.

Because my job is to help you die.

My job is to help you find Resting Pose, Corpse Pose, Savasana. My job is to help you listen to what your body has been trying to tell you. My job is to help all those poor muscles that are constantly in a state of DO NOW to let go and do nothing for a little while. My job is to help you become one with that table, to relax and let go and simply be. While we are in session, there is nothing left for you to do.

But moreover, my job is to help you to that state. As with any yoga class, the suggestion can be made, but it is the student/client who in the end needs to do the work. I can help the muscles see where they need to go, but it is the client who must take that final step and allow them to release. True Savasana is something you can spend a lifetime working on, bit by bit.

Laying there on your back, letting everything go and exposing every last vulnerable bit of you can be pretty terrifying. It is the dirty little secret of body work and energy work. They both ask you to take stock of what’s going on in that body and mind you’re lugging around, and a lot of times you come face to face with the very things you thought you squashed down nicely, never to be seen again.

So Savasana takes time. It takes effort. It takes a willingness to see and feel things that make you uncomfortable. It means you have to let go and be supported by something other than your own will, your own self. It asks you to stop what you are doing and to be here, now. It asks you to see and feel the emotions, discomforts, and thoughts. It asks you to accept them as they are, and then let them go.

It is a magical moment it is when I am done a session, and I look to see the client completely relaxed, completely at peace. Completely in Savasana.

What a gift.

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